orientation day,20th march
as i walked in TBS,i was alraedy ready to take a new challenge of another beggining of my life.
and tht is my college life=).....as i was queing up for my turn to take a photo for the student id card, i browsed around d room. some students were nervous,some chatting happily with their friends,some already studying!! and well some are jsut stoning...
suddenly..somethign caught my eye,she was liek an angel...so stunningly beatiful, .....i guess it was love at first sight.....dont really bliff in these kidna stuff tho
week1,day 2
a day has passed,i was eager to get to know her....
alwayz finding d oportunity to start a converstaion,otherwise ill look like some lamo freak pervert who approach girls randomly....
week1,day 3
time passed,another day has gone.....we were alrady starting lectures,well it was only introduction for all d subject we were taking...and yet stiLL! still finding a way to talk to her!
week1,day 4
during economics lecture, me and my friends were sittin at d back of her...at tht moment, my heart started beating faster, FINALLY, i had d chance to know her...
d lecturer was just telling us abt how important for us to get d txt book,well i did try to get it but it was outa stock...well at tht very moment,i saw her holding ..d txt book..and in my mind..oh yess...its like after 3 days of waiting, There !! oporutnity rite in fornt of my face...so i took d initiative to make a move......well i got to know her tru tht way ..it was kinda wierd tho,lame pick up lines hahahhaa
week 2............
as time passes by,we grew a lil much closer,
in fact, at tht time i realli felt like i cud start doing stuff and show care for her...
well i started of on our first day out for a drink.....with a surprise note in her file..
stating*can we do this again*...i kno lame yeah..but then..i taught abt it for nights,and i thought tht i shud try something new hehe...well anyway, besides tht ... she loves candies, so i constantly bought her strawberry lollipops..hehe..i even dropped some in her bag without her noticing..cheeky me eh??.hehe, well i realli did care for her alot,cuz being with her makes me feel comfortable,it makes me feel apreciated, well if u guys understand..=)
it was goin so well......we were realli close..and at tht very moment i felt like im not in this world anymore....it was all good.=P
week 3
as time passes, things started to get a lil wierd,well......she started treating me really cold..
i can feel it...as i settled down and found a sit in d lecture hall, there she was ...she waas sittign rite in front of me....i acted natural,but in me,my heart was pounding realli fast,i know something bad was really gonna happen,well ......the truth was it really did,
as she passed me a letter written chien loong on d front page...she gaved me a wave saying sorry, ..and in my mind....'okay this aint good at all'
it was an essay full, but d main subject was , tht she just wanted to be friends and ntohing more
week 3
tough week i guess..=/..
our relationship grew further apart....she started avoiding me
week 4
..........................................nothings changed, our converstaion was getting lesser and lesser...
week 5
things started to get a lil worst, she is sudenly avoiding me as in not willing to meet up with me or anything.........well to be honest, this feeling sucks
week6
i was getting used to it,but deep down in my heart i still haf feelings for her
i tot tht meeting new ppl,new girls,and keepign myself occupied wud help, but it didnt...
my heart and soul was still on her.......sighz...
and it didnt end there, tht morning i decided to walk straight up to her , push my guts and held on to my balls.....and i politely asked her if shes avoiding me...and why.......
..................she said tht she was, and tht i wasnt giving her space,i was everywhere!!...and tht she lieks another guy,also form d same intake......
.......i was stunned..............speechless,stoning, i was liek a piller in d middle of d ocean..standing still...and wishing tht this wasnt true at all........but it was
-so this is my story-(briefly, not detalied)
some explanations r too difficult to be explained with words
so yeah,i wud just like to tell d ppl out there who r sharing d same problems with me!
there r more to life than jsut beign sad over a girl...so dont take ur life away or even attempt to commit suicide or start smoking,take drugs if u feel upset...life is precious...
take my situation as an example,if i can go tru it why cant u...
u jus thafta alwayz think positive,look ahead,look towards d future and not waste time ....
there r more troubles to come in d future ,and all we can do is learn from mistakes and nvr repeat em , don put so much hope on any relationship..cuz it might be false...and u might be upset knowing tht it isnt true
well thts all abt it.....hope u enjoy my dramatic story...